Common happenings, and thoughts about those happenings.

The former love of my life is getting married.
EVERYONE is getting married.
It's just weird. I remember the time I wanted to marry him.
But, then I got depressed. Really depressed. I didn't want to bring him down with me.
So if he ever thinks I hurt him, he's wrong.
Needed to get that out there.
He never did anything bad to me, never hurt me.
I just didn't want to hurt him.
Now he is moved on to make someone else happy as much as he made me.

That's okay though.
Everything has its place and its time.
My time to marry is not right now.
I have things I gotta do.
Places I HAVE to go.
People I have to love.

To be honest you can't love people the same way when you are married, even engaged, as you can when you aren't all spoused up.
My time hasn't come yet.
But if and when it does, it is going to be a glorious marriage.
One that when we hold hands, we are holding others.
Our love will spill over into others lives and people can't help but be happy around us.
We will take part in the shalom-y plan God has for the world.
And we will be lovers, never haters, acknowledging the soul within each body.

I say I can't wait, but the anticipation is fascinating.